Starkess, on 12 June 2012 - 09:03 AM, said:
Have a few queries out right now. Not feeling too confident that anything will come of them. I'm so frustrated with this ms at this point. Probably will try another couple batches of queries but at some point relatively soon may lay it in its grave, for a while at least. I still think it's good, but it's not great. I'm not sitting on the next Harry Potter over here or anything.
Started something new, feeling pretty good about it. Basic outline is done, just started on the first draft. Working through the conflicting feelings of excitement to be working on something new and the dread of holy shit I have so far to go before this is finished. Think this one is more ambitious than any of my previous works and will be difficult to pull off, but I am excited to try. It's sci fi, for a change of pace for me.
I've found that the pieces I kind of dread becoming immersed in, often end up being the most rewarding in the long run. I think it's better than just feeling like, "Man, this story's so awesome, I'm so good, it's just flowing!
" That usually ends up in me finishing it and thinking it's amazing, then getting high one night a few weeks later and reading it and being like "My god...it's awful".
That's partially why I've put off getting into my two-part epic for so long. I wanted to be really, really sure (or at least as sure as possible) that the general outline of the plot and characters was competent enough before I found myself five-hundred pages deep and feeling like I need to rewrite half -- or more -- of the damn story. Luckily so far I seem to have a pretty good track record of being able to plan a story out, and then go and actually write it and still feel like the broad strokes of my original plan are solid. I honestly can't imagine being the type of writer that just sits down with a beginning in mind and starts going at it, with little-to-no idea of how it will end. At least when it comes to anything over a hundred pages.