Ravenhair, I get that. I really do and I know she likes me A LOT. I have tried to be more responsive, communicative and to make more time for her. That leads to her pushing me and saying things like, "I know you love me." I feel very pushed into some next level stuff that I'm just not interested in right now. She will alternate some seriously OTT messages with snarky jabs when she's not getting immediate responses from me. Also the sheer volume of communication late at night and during work hours is overwhelming.
I think we are fundamentally not well suited. When we're together it is non-stop talking. Even if we are watching a movie, she is talking and always pushes the conversation towards emotional discourse. I find this completely exhausting. Yes, I HAVE TOLD HER THIS REPEATEDLY.
I realize I am justifying my response to her right now and that's not what I want to be doing.
We were supposed to have a spring fling and end it over the summer. She kept messaging and I called her once or twice. She decided we were having a long distance relationship. I genuinely feel like she is not listening. She has spent a few days here and I've told her I needed to work, she responded by being in the room making conversation until I gave up. She was pleased with herself that she "got me to take a day off". As a result, I got behind on my work and twice as stressed out. Same thing when I told her I had to leave her place to see my son. She's always like, "I understand that's important to you, but can't you meet him later or tomorrow?" I feel like I'm always having to say, "No." Every weekend it's a very late night invitation to do something. I'm too tired at 11pm. I'm too tired at 10 or 11 pm on a work night.
Just got a message from her that she hopes I have a nice Thanksgiving and got some rest. Like the vitriolic tirade I got in both text and email didn't happen. It did. Seriously, if she feels like I'm that bad for her, then I probably am.
I am not going to respond. I'm over it. I'm sick of being the bad guy.