I'm not okay, but I appreciate your concern, my friend.
That game showed what a total sporting failure this ownership group has been since their arrival.
They claim to love the club, but they've made a lot of really poor footballing decisions since purchasing it from an extremely motivated (i.e. bankrupt) Icelandic banking consortium all those years ago now.
The London Stadium move will have made them a lot of money, but little thought or planning seemed to go into the transition. I'm not going to say that it was a bad move for the club just yet, but I will say that it came with a lot of cheap talk from the owners about being a top six side.
This could have been off-set by the owners having an actual fucking plan for the club, but instead they've flip-flopped from one wildly different playing ethos to another, hiring optimistically and then showing their timidity and lack of footballing comprehension by their reluctance to make the tough decisions on behalf of the club at the appropriate time. Basically, they've been consistently reactive instead of proactive and the result is a total mish-mash of playing styles and an incohesive unit as they bounced from Zola to Grant to Allardyce to Bilic to Moyes.
I feel bad for Manuel Lanzini. As a West Ham fan I would be crushed to lose him, but as a decent human being I'd like to see him move to a proper club and get the credit he deserves as a player (and not just from Polish Genius, who recognized early on just how good Lanzini is). He faded towards the end of the game tonight, and he was a bit confused by his number eight position at the start, but for the middle half of the game he was pure quality. Honestly, if he played for Barcelona, you'd all agree with me that he's a real peach.
Joe Hart was dogshit, and exemplifies why West Ham are useless from the top down. I mean, what did Adrian really do to deserve this? He was brilliant for Allardyce and brilliant for Bilic's first (and by far most successful) season. He got replaced by Darren Randolph during a shaky patch last season and then got properly fucked by the loan arrival of Joe Hart this season and the public dick-slapping of the owners when they announced that Hart was the best player they'd ever signed or some similar nonsense.
And this is really just the tip of the proverbial iceberg. And it all boils down to a total disregard for the business of football. There is clearly no overall plan.
Meanwhile, the club continue to sign an aimless and horribly expensive array of players and then change managers and playing philosophies just to complicate their woes. While Moyes says differently, what the fuck is Javier Hernandez really going to do in a David Moyes managed side? Haven't we seen this play out already once before?
It is bad business. It is poor general management. It is failure at the highest level. How could any thinking person believe otherwise?
Having said all of this, I still suspect Moyes will keep us up this season. Which is probably a shame for the club in the long run. I don't even think we were as bad today as the scoreline indicated. Penalties that went different ways, et al. I think Moyes has inherited a complete mess and is doing his best to organize it. I've seen worse performances that got better results this season.
The sad truth is: I don't see any lasting, long term improvement without a change in ownership. And I don't think a change in ownership will happen anytime soon.