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Very happy he's home.

I believe you. I have memories that could be described as body memories. I agree they sound odd. I don't think...or I never have anyway...that they are cellular memories stored within a specific area of the body that is not the brain. I always think of them as being stored in the brain but being partitioned and associated specifically with a certain area of the body. I'm probably conflating different types of memory at this point. Whatever the case, it isn't an unreasonable situation. I have been on Adderall and Wellbutrin for over a month and I am shocked to report it seems to be working somewhat. I was skeptical about the ADHD but my psychiatrist thought it was likely. The past month has shown a marked improvement in almost every respect. I feel better in almost every way. I'm not 'cured' as of yet...there are still problems. It still takes me hours to perform fairly simple tasks. I haven't been able to watch a movie for over a year. I have a difficult time going to bed...as in I won't do it for hours...and therefore am always tired. My Adderall dose is going up a bit and my therapist will help me with other aspects. I am hopeful but worry it won't last. We have not discussed aspects of my childhood beyond the initial assessment and I feel that will have to change at some point. I feel better this month and hate the idea of wallowing in that morass again. I feel like if I could maintain the way I am very recently then I'll take it and ignore the rest. I don't think that's going to work. The reality is things are not where they need to be but even this small improvement feels like a huge change. Hopefully it's a trend and not an anomaly.

I have now read... Death of Wolverine Hunt for Wolverine Return of Wolverine Issues of Wolverine up to X of Swords, which I am saving until I catch some other titles up. The first (Rebirth)Detective Comics trade...written by Tynion...called Rise of the Batmen. I am now reading the second DC trade...The Victim Syndicate. All were/are good and enjoyed. Particularly good villains with good creepy vibes. I hope to see more of them. I will likely never be current again, though.

So War of the Realms is much bigger than I thought. I've been out of the comic loop for a bit and didn't know it even existed. The good news is I like War of the Realms. Bad news is Marvel put out a sweet omnibus that almost immediately went out of print. Sold out in a couple weeks and is now gone. I hope they reprint it at some point. More good news is the Annihilation omnibus is still out there so I can order one. Currently reading Daredevil Back in Black trades which are great as expected. Art is absolutely fantastic.

I am usually a big fan of all that galactic level stuff. I am a huge fan of the first Annihilation event as an example. I have always been a fan of Silver Surfer but writers always try to put him on Earth fighting muggers or some such. Put him in space! I also like Thor stories about Asgard and the Realms and all that. Yeah seeing those groups and others like them in the MCU would be pretty cool. Gladiator is like the Karsa Orlong of Marvel Comics.

I am reading all the Jane Foster-Thor comics I can get. I have just finished with the Shi'ar issues so now it's time to return to the War of the Realms...I assume. I have a few issues missing from X of Swords so I haven't started that yet. I still have a ton of Batman and Daredevil comics to read. Detective Comics and Daredevil are probably my favorite comics overall so I'm saving them for whatever reason. At one time...maybe still...Brubaker was my favorite comic writer so I look forward to anything with his name on it.

My psychiatrist believes my depression and anxiety may be related to untreated ADD. We're going to work on it and maybe see how I do on a low dose of meds. Meanwhile I will keep seeing my therapist as well. Psychiatrist has prescribed Wellbutrin and recommended 'bright light therapy'. This appears to be a...bright light that you set up above or off your field of vision. It's supposed to affect peripheral vision and help with depression. Not sure if I am going to do it. Lastly and most importantly...my sincere condolences to all experiencing loss as has been described in this thread or kept personal and private. Also support and strength to everyone in the thread and elsewhere trying to work out these issues.

I have a video session with a therapist tomorrow. I am not very comfortable with it but I will give it a try. They want me to see the therapist and the psychiatrist as usual so I will do it. I have always been sort of flip about therapy. I have been in many therapy sessions and every one of them was a cliche. The highly educated/highly paid therapist just sits there until it's time to discuss billing then they animate quite a bit. It just feels like a racket. On the other hand I can see value in the idea of it. I don't know. I'm willing to try. Maybe I'm just nervous. I have never had a video call like this and it feels weird. Psychiatrist next month.

Complaining is one of life's great joys. There are no minutes too precious for complaining.

There are interesting aspects to it for sure.

I finally read House of X/Powers of X. I liked it but... Still liked it, though.

Stop reading Rankin. He isn't for you. This post makes me shake my head while gazing off into the middle distance.

I couldn't grasp this reference so I googled it. Probably not a good idea. Some of the pics I see of Huisman make me think he might be alright. I don't think height really matters. Wolverine the comic book character is small but not every artist draws him that way. Age might be more of a factor. Wolverine should have a somewhat rugged appearance but the actor will age more quickly than the character which can be problematic. As you say...20 years. Still he might do alright. I think I am more interested in an actor giving a great performance. I mean of course. Everyone is.

Wolverine is a full foot shorter than me and about 80 lbs heavier. As for actors...I guess I prefer an unknown to anyone I can think of right now. I prefer Laura remain X-23. I usually despise knock-off characters but I like X-23. Sort of like I prefer...if Batman is dead...Batman just be dead and Grayson remain Nightwing instead of Grayson becoming a new Batman. Laura is cool as X-23.

I agree completely. I am almost OCD about starting a book series at the beginning. The good news with Rankin's Rebus stuff is they are all good. I think you'll be happy if you continue with him. As I say, the first couple are good but he settles in and that series takes off. Your comment about the setting is spot on...Edinburgh is absolutely a character in it's own right. Rankin isn't really all about the mystery itself, rather he's about the characters and the settings. The Rebus books are places to visit more than mysteries to solve. Rankin is similar...to my mind...to James Lee Burke. Both write procedurals that are heavy on character and setting. I would consider them to be my favorites of the heavy hitters in that market...along with John Connolly but Connolly is different in that he has a strong supernatural element to his work.

The Rebus stuff starts out good and gets better from there. Rankin is among the best there is.

Didn't Tolkien himself say that Bombadil wasn't supposed to be explained or completely understood? I like Bombadil as he is, mysterious and odd. And I just dropped a piece of potato off my spoon and it splashed soup all over my face.

One book.