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    Mental Wellbeing Thread

    Since the other threads are long buried I'll start a new one. A place to discuss your MH struggles with others, offer advice or just unload your problems if need be. Please be respectful, and remember that just because something helps you doesn't mean it's going to help others too. Lately I've been doing well. I have fewer days where my depression interferes with my day-to-day life. And, even where it does, I made a big step in telling my flatmates and BF about my problems, so i have people close to me who understand and will try to help if they can (for me, this is usually them enforcing their company on me. Sounds stupid I know, but if I'm not alone I make a conscious effort to break out of my negative thinking and bleak mood. And it also prompts me to get out of bed and make some effort to get dressed, which is hard when my depression is at it's worst). But, as I said, these days are less frequent now, even during really busy periods at uni where I feel overwhelmed by work. Part of it, I think, is that after about 9/10 years I've finally managed carved out some sort of life for myself, outside of just work and school, and I feel more comfortable about who I am. I stopped trying to just blend in so I wouldn't be noticed, and I'm able to be myself. That has been difficult, as every instinct screamed out at me to stop it, and just go back to trying to fit in with those around me. In terms of eating, well, I manage. I have bad days, where just the thought of certain foods (read: carbs) makes me feel nauseous and wracked with guilt just for thinking about them. But, I also have more good days than bad. Most of the time I enjoy cooking, and looking for new recipes, and the feeling of accomplishment when I prepare a meal from scratch and eat it without thinking how many calories, how much fat etc is in it. Related to the socialising stuff I mention below, I do still feel uncomfortable eating around others, particularly if I don't know them well. But I can do it, which is more than I could say a few years back. I also exercise at a more reasonable/normal level now. I don't try too much on too little, and I don't exercise with the purpose of losing weight. I do it because I enjoy it. It's a much more healthy approach for me I do still struggle with socialising. Meeting new people is often very trying for me, I always feel very uncomfortable and self-critical, and I feel as though I have no interesting conversation to offer, and that all of my flaws are on display. I'm not at all forward either, as if people are talking beside me in a general, inclusive manner (sort of just addressing those in the area) I keep quiet because I worry about saying something stupid. It takes me a long time to feel comfortable enough to start speaking more freely with people. Theda's eye contact thread was interesting for me because someone was pointing out how surprising it was that such a simple thing as eye contact could be so difficult for some people. I confess it left me feeling rather deflated and inadequate. This (socialising in general, not eye contact specifically) is something I'm trying to work on now.
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    Amazing Book Deals V.2

    Since the last thread was locked for length I thought I would open a new one. And on the deals front, maybe I'm an idiot for spreading this and lowering my chances, but The House of Shattered Wings, an upcoming novel by Aliette de Bodard, is currently part of a giveaway on Goodreads. There are 10 up for grabs, and unless I'm mistaken it's a lucky draw. https://www.goodreads.com/giveaway/show/148229-the-house-of-shattered-wings
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    SOLO: A Spoiler Story (contains spoilers)

    Well I see I missed the actual discussion of the movie as the thread descended into more of the same it's a flop no it's not no you shut up aahhhh SJW they ruined my childhood. But whatever, I just saw it so I'll share my thoughts anyway. First off, I really enjoyed the film and came out of the cinema thinking that was £4.99 (wtf at these prices?! I don't think I have ever paid so little to see a film in recent years) well spent. The movie was tons of fun, genuinely funny, and I thought the entire cast was great. The weakest was Erenreich (not sure on the spelling) as Solo for me, but I certainly didn't feel he was bad or anything, it was more to do with my association of Ford with the role I think. Some highlights - the whole "train heist" sequence was awesome. Only met the characters involved briefly but I felt for them all and was moved when they died. Plus, the action and score ramped up the excitement for me and made the scene memorable. The overall look of the film. Some pretty awesome shots and generally everything just looked so sumptuous and pleasing to the eye. Droid rebellion. hopefully I needn't say more. I gave a couple of unattractive belly laughs at those scenes. Donald Glover as Lando was great. So suave and the epitome of schmoozy gangster. Was it flawless? No. A few things I wasn't satisfied by: Kira's story being skimmed over. She did some bad things, apparently, and was ashamed of her past....I really wanted to know more about this to flesh the character out some more. Will say here that I though Emilia Clarke did a wonderful job, and it was nice to see her not deadpanning and actually showing g some range. Darth Maul. That was a big meh and eye roll for me because well, a) he really should be dead, and b) they really really went out of their way to hit you over the head with the fact that THIS IS A CAMEO AND HE IS DARTH MAUL LOOK AT HIM NEEDLESSLY IGNITE HIS LIGHTSABRE! Could have done without that, but it's small fries in the grand scheme of things. They killed off Thandie way too early And because I have to share this small anecdote, as I was coming out of the cinema I was walking with this lovely old couple who had been to see the film too and he was telling her that he really enjoyed it and thought it was stunning and did she remember when they went to see ESB together? Which was lovely, and then they ended up on my bus home and chatted with me all the way back and the whole thing was just lovely. Anyway, needless anecdote but had to share
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    Unpopular Opinions, Part Deux

    What you are describing are chips. Which are served over here with pretty much everything the US serves those pretend potatoes you call fries with. However, my own unpopular opinion is that I don’t like chips or fries. Or fish and chips, waaaay too greasy for me. And I don’t like takeaway food from, well, any variety of takeaway really I rate Parks and Rec as one of my favourite comedies and can happily just keep rewatching it on a loop Or Jean Ralphio and Mona Lisa. Their father is fond of saying how they are the worst
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    Small Questions v. 10105

    Would be kind of weird to think this didn’t happen really. Seems like the sort of thing that would crop up. For example if Bran asked why his mother had left. I just run with the assumption he was told off page
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    Watch, Watched, Watching: The Good, Bad and Ugly

    Why do you keep bumping this old thread?
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    Unpopular Opinions, Part Deux

    I’m still a fan of nigella lawson, sue me
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    DCEU: Suicidal Insanity

    WOnder woman pictures https://variety.com/2018/film/news/wonder-woman-sequel-first-look-photos-gal-gadot-1202844285/
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    TTTNE 473: I hope Josh posts in this thread!

    Mostly safari because I am mostly here on iPad. But the site really doesn’t work well on here since the update, ridiculously jumpy and plagued by ads. I use Chrome on my laptop which works well
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    TTTNE 473: I hope Josh posts in this thread!

    Little known fact, you only ever visit an IKEA store once. And that she because you never truly leave. Some small part of you is forever trapped in that labyrinth of flatpack, plastic-y goodness.
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    Unpopular Opinions, Part Deux

    How come? Not salty enough for you? *chckles to self* *jots in notepad*
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    Sense8: why...so...sensitive (spoilers)

    I enjoyed it. It wasn’t perfect, but the issues were mostly unavoidable because of the cancellation. I deeply resent that we will never see the individual stories play out fully as they were probably meant to (Capheus’ election, Sun’s family scandals, etc.) but I saw what could have been in the finale, which was the best that could be achieved given the circumstances. I loved this show and I’m sad we will get no more...and probably not
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    HBO's Westworld VII: Abort?.Retry.Fail

    I don’t see her a single straight up villain but I certainly feel uncomfortable with her methods (as I think is the intention). I understand what she is doing and why, and that the brutality may be necessary, and I empathise with her given what she was subjected to. But the way she goes about it troubles me. Moreso in relation to her brutal use of the other hosts than her war against Delos
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    Trailer Thread V

    Mowgli i forgot this was happening. I remember remarking to my friends how weird it was that the jungle book adaptations were in development at the same time, both of them with pretty great casting. Have to say this looks a lot more appealing to me than the previous venture (though I did like that one)
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    TTTNE 473: I hope Josh posts in this thread!

    Wait you worked as a recruiter? Mind if I PM you a few questions a bit later?
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    TTTNE 473: I hope Josh posts in this thread!

    Bucky.... *Heavy breathing*
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    Unpopular Opinions, Part Deux

    Oops, I Kinda missed the part off that i didn’t really like season 2, rather than just prefering season 1. Season 3 was easily the weakest though
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    All things Star Wars

    Could also work with a time jump between 8 and 9 maybe? The First Order is almost victorious, but the spark of rebellion lives on. Time jump to episode 9 where the Resistance has gained ground...perfect opportunity for tv series or interlude films covering the interim
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    Unpopular Opinions, Part Deux

    Season 1 of Fargo was the best season. Even Apple disagree with that opinion, autocomplete changed was to wasnt (
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    Watch, Watched, Watching: The Prequel

    I love S1 of Fargo but for the life of me just couldn’t get into seasons 2 and 3 in the same way. And i know Most seem to think S2 was superior(though I think most also felt S3 was weaker). Decided to rewatch GLOW. And also Dont Trust The Bitch in Apartment 23, which I’m loving
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    All things Star Wars

    I hope they move on from the Skywalker focus. Sure, keep them as important persons, but let someone else have the limelight. That’s why I still hope Rey’s parents being “no-one” remains true.
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    All things Star Wars

    Or anyone to interact with really I can give the movie a pass on that because the way her story was structured made her isolated for nearly the entire film. I only lament the fact that this means we will never get the Rey/Leia interaction I have been craving ( on the subject of Leia, the tantalising hint of shared history between her and Holdo left me wanting more, and I would have loved to see some of that shared history. Alas Why? What could this possibly add except fanwank material.
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    UK Politics: Royal Weddings and Referendums

    Not disputing your opinion here but have you anyone in mind to take his place? I’ve considered it a few times and I’m struggling to come up with a Labour leader I could feel enthusiastic about
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    TTTNE 473: I hope Josh posts in this thread!

    Oh, has this only just reached Slovenia? It has been a ‘thing’ in certain groups in the UK for well over a year now.
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    TTTNE 473: I hope Josh posts in this thread!

    My colleague is on jury service at the minute and she is horribly stressed. She sat for one trial already which was...let’s just say it was unpleasant and leave it be. I got Germany here, I’m trying to think of some witty new username and avatar. My lucky dip at work got me Russia. Can someone tell me if that’s a reasonable chance for 1st 2nd or 3rd? I have money riding on this! (One of my colleagues who has the absolute worst luck in everything confirmed her bad luck by picking Panama out of the hat ) Best of luck! Well, maybe just speaking for myself but I quite often don’t exactly fit job requirements because they demand experience I don’t have and can’t get because everywhere wants prior experience and I can’t afford to not work and get that experience on a voluntary basis. But also, I don’t think the labour force having expectations of their potential employer is unreasonable at all. Employers have all the power in employee/employer relationships but expecting certain things from them isn’t unreasonable